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Intermittent. Fasting. My brain and habits tend to lean towards instant gratification in an ADHD way if given the reins. The rational future planning part of my brain realizes this is fairly detrimental to all the things I want to succeed, and tries to set rules. In practice brain guffaws at these rules, dances in circles and gets excited about something else. In practice brain realllly likes to read books about habits, prefers this to doing the habits though. But future brain may finally have snuck one in that could stick, read Atomic Habits by James Clear a couple weeks ago, and ordered (this is also a habit of in practice brain, but future brain was sneaky this time) a new habit journal.  Thinking about habits as setting the good habit to be stronger than the pull of the bad one. I started two things today, and both fall under the umbrella of intermittent fasting: 1) food only for an 8 hour window of the day, and try to avoid snacking inside that window, 2) checking and responding to social media and email once per day. These are both things I know work for me, and I can be the person that practices these habits as strongly as she practices the daily habit of a cup of coffee in the morning, through all situations, places, and external stimuli.

Today was a: loop dog walk. Ponder what projects I want to do and how to do the. Do some little tasks that make my fight of flight response tick. Drop things at the mail. Find my donated mug I made a long time ago for sale at the thrift store for $2. Buy windshield wipers. Read book with dog snuggles. Go to hot yoga (20 people) not hot enough, only an hour. Drink coconut water. Eat two satisfying meals that I couldn't finish. Resist snacking urges. Hang out with megan and mom watching giant tv while snuggling with moss. Got to bed early, plan on getting up in the middle of the night to be productive. Sort of day.

today was beautiful crunch snowy, moss jumped in the river, and the humans were weird

Today, it stayed in the low 30s and snowed, melted a little, snowed a little more. The parking lots and intersections are a bit treacherous, but the snow is nice and crispy. Moss let me sleep in until 10. There was hoarfrost on all the veg. Megan was going to go run on the beach, the tide was acceptable, but guts to 25 sounded cold. So she went to run flat and slow from the sports center along K-beach.

Moss and I meandered the Centennial campground loop. We walked towards the bridge, and watched mergansers floating down the river (he was acting like jumping in would be fun), and then we moseyed towards the boatramp. I had the not so smart idea of lets walk along the water's edge (low water = sharp things exposed..but no harm encountered there...) there were some ducks in the water... and the goober decided to go for a swim in the shallow (turns out he is a water and a bird dog!) chasing after them. His already almost uncontainable zoom of a walking style (leash walks with him in places with all the smells are like tying yourself to the looney toons version of the tasmanian devil). Watching wet dog run while also shaking water from tip to tail is enjoyable. I saw a kingfisher, perched on an upturned river access ramp. We encountered one human, it was the Megan, Moss got the totally uncontrollable zoomies. This walk was a good reminder of all the things this almost four year old dog still needs to be trained on...but at the same time, what a good dog he really is.

The rest of the day was fairly meh. The humans all have the zoomies too. I'm having the winter hibernation eat all the things. A bunch of things ended on Ebay!! and I made instant pot dirty rice. And continued working on the painting I started back on yesterday. It's from one of my favorite Aiktak photos, of TUPU on the cliff. I was having a hard time with it, the birds were just meh, good but not the TUPU jizz.. so I decided to just allow myself to doodle. Not cover it up, but add paint however I felt onto the canvas. So I diluted paint, and poured it on tipped it around, played with colors. When that layer dried, it was quite dark. So today I added white paint, and now, it is TUPU in the fog, and I quite like it (watching paint dry is a lovely pastime btw)

TUPU in the fog. Reference photo 2018 Aiktak. Gave myself permission to get weird on top of the realism on this one. 

Zooooomies day